RANDOMNESS OVERLOAD.

Many people have been through the same experiences I have, or something related. Most hide it. Why? Some are afraid for their lives. Others want to protect themselves or someone else. But, whatever the reason, hiding it isn’t the solution. It only leaves a cut so deep in the soul that it seems there is no way of healing it. We deny we’re tired, we deny that we’re scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed, and most importantly, we deny that we’re in denial. We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe - and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can’t recognize the truth right in front of our faces.

Another self denial.

We do not choose to be born. We do not choose our parents. We do not choose our historical epoch, or the country of our birth, or the immediate circumstances of our upbringing. We do not, most of us, choose to die when life is so messed up. Nor do we choose the time or conditions of our death. But within all this choicelessness, we do choose how we shall live, brave or afraid, honorably or dishonorably, with purpose or not at all. We decide what is important and what is trivial in life. We decide that what makes us perfect is either what we do or what we refuse to do. But no matter how indifferent the universe may be to our choices and decisions, these choices and decisions are ours to make. We decide. We choose. And as we decide and choose, so are our lives formed. In the end, forming our own destiny is what ambition is about.

No choice?

Nothing last forever. So live it up, drink it down, laugh it off, avoid the bullshit, take chances and never have regrets, because at one point everything we did was exactly what we wanted.